I cant describe this feeling...other than bleh.
Bleh. Bland. Vapid. Ugh. Not even so so.
I hope this is a phase cause I cannot live like this I swear.
These days I have no desire to do anything, talk to anybody.
Even to get work done sef. Maybe I am biting more than I can chew.
Ugh. All I want to do is crawl under my covers and allow my mind to escape into another world.

Ugh. Bleh. Bland. tasteless. Lacking liveliness.
Almost like I want something MAJoR to happen, so I can officially lose it.
Not that I am praying for anything bad to happen, but you get my point.
Well if you don't, sorry.

I have this glazed, not interested look pasted on my face.
I cant wipe it off, but not like I really want to.

Everybody keeps saying to 'Have Faith, have faith have faith...'
For how much longer?
Shey you still have faith?

Im this close (-0.000000000000000000000001s) to losing it.
Interpret that however you want.

Im too tired to care.
Anybody have access to some 'happy' pills?


Comments (18)

On March 21, 2010 at 5:04 PM , Miss Natural said...

Fabulola what's the problem? you cant allow these feelings to bring you down. Happy pills= big continental hug :) Yeah its hard but have faith, that is the whole essence of faith, when you don't feel like it. Big hug again ok.

On March 21, 2010 at 5:29 PM , TayneMent said...

Big Big Cosign. Even more annoying when you just want to be by yourself and these feelings but you have to go out into the world and act like everything is "normal". Hope you feel better dearie.

ps send over happy pills if you find 'em

On March 22, 2010 at 3:13 AM , 24yearOldTeEnAgeR said...


On March 22, 2010 at 6:38 AM , SHE said...

You know the cliché: "It gets worse before it gets better"?

Just when you think you're about to lose it, you begin to feel better.
Perhaps you need a pleasant distraction?

On March 22, 2010 at 8:23 AM , Harry-Rami Itie said...

Have faith... remember God is greater than our feelings...

On March 22, 2010 at 9:04 AM , aeedeeaee said...

I still have small faith sha...sometimes...Like now...I can like to borrow you small..i hope you don't mind...

iF u happen to get any happy pills, leme know, i'll email my P.O Box Numbr :)

Did you get my mail?

On March 22, 2010 at 9:58 AM , misspumping said...

take it easy
things can only get better if u feel
this bad
cheer up spring is round the corner

On March 22, 2010 at 11:05 AM , Good Naija Girl said...

Sorry you're not feeling so great...can we blame it on something in the air (because I'm feeling like crap lately too).

I'm trying to think of the good things in life, that and crying when I feel like it and sleeping in a lot.

Hope you're feeling better soon...a new month is on its way! xo

On March 22, 2010 at 12:01 PM , The Girl with the Red Hair said...

Guess you need your me-time
But still you have to have faith.
Hope you feel better soon

On March 22, 2010 at 12:17 PM , tisha said...

get over yourself
you must think talking about losing it is cool
it's okay to talk about your feelings
it means you are a human being
talking about losing it for love is plain stupid
i should know
(I have a sis who has issues because of this stupid love issue)
so read the bible, pray do anything but please no more stupid talk about losing it
Do you think its worth it?

On March 22, 2010 at 1:56 PM , Tatababe said...

Please cheer up and stay positive...and yes have faith.

On March 22, 2010 at 4:04 PM , chayoma said...

i have such days.........This winter was the worst!

You just have to look past it all........ towards the future

On March 22, 2010 at 5:29 PM , Mwajim Al said...

Its okay, everyone has one of those Bleh days, mine feels like wanting to suddenly scream out loud and run around with my hands flapping in the air... wanting someone to save me. The truth is that God dey! Even when we feel like losing it... especially when we feel like losing it, he holds us tight through it all. Its hard, but keep holding on, no matter how long or hard! Take care :) :) :)

On March 22, 2010 at 5:30 PM , tunrayo said...

co-sign tisha's tough love cos u dont seem to want any nice words really. hope u snap out of it soon though

On March 22, 2010 at 6:15 PM , Anonymous said...

No Pills!!!...as in seriously!!!....stop messing around!!! and stop talking like that!!!...you'll be fine...plus trust me, no matter how bad you think you have it a shit load of people are having it worse, much much worse....I'm sure u know UCH...was there a few days ago to see a friend...lets just say my life is heaven and I'm grateful....God dey ur side....cheers

On March 22, 2010 at 6:57 PM , Myne Whitman said...

Take it easy Fabs, nothing is that serious in this life.

As for happy pills, try multivites but consult your doctor first sha. Have a good week.

On March 23, 2010 at 6:22 AM , Miss FlyHigh said...

My dear call me harsh but I'd rather slap you and see you in 2 months happy and bouncy than kiss you and say 'awww you'll be fine' and then in 2 months see you looking like a miserable old bag.

Babe You've been like this for a while now & it upsets me to see that nothing has changed ... You can drag the horse to the river but U cannot force it to drink the water ...There is only so much advice and encouragement U can get from people. The ball is in your court the power is in your hand to change what you don't like. I believe God has given us all that we need to succeed in this life. I'm not to sure what is that is wrong but don't kill yourself ..things will work out ..I remember reading funms post about 'parallel parking'. I should hope your not parallel parking your life with someone elses and then feeling bad because yours is not like theres ... it's just a thought because it can happen and I've done it before.

anyways take care hun, luv ya

On April 8, 2010 at 8:13 AM , Tisha said...

losing it over whatever is not worth it. maybe i should have said hang in there.