fail.ure
1 - The omission of expected or required action
- a lack or deficiency of a desirable quality
2 - the action or state of not functioning.
Technically according to the dictionary that Apple has so gracefully installed in all their computers, my one biggest fear is staring at me in the face.
The one moment in my life where I thought I knew 'why' I existed on this earth is being mocked.
I was so sure, I was so ready, I was burning with passion.
Or something like it.
The fire has gone stone cold now as I struggle to just exist in this life.
I had a plan, I had a purpose.
But in my race to exist, I must have run off and dropped it somewhere.
But where?
I have searched everywhere.
I have searched inside and outside of me.
Its not under my bed, and I dont think I forgot to pack it.
Or did I?
I have spent the last few months trying to duplicate the circumstances under which I discovered that purpose.
Maybe, just maybe it will show itself again.
Now staring at my imminent failure, the voices in my head are pointing and laughing.
'Well what did you think you could do?' They are saying to me.
They are right aren't they?
I mean what else can I do?
Its like I woke up with amnesia.
What did I do wrong?
I envy all of you who not only know, but are doing.
I hope it doesn't take me another 20-something years to find it.
Dont wait another moment to start living your purpose. its not enough to just find it.
xxx
Fabulo-la
1 - The omission of expected or required action
- a lack or deficiency of a desirable quality
2 - the action or state of not functioning.
Technically according to the dictionary that Apple has so gracefully installed in all their computers, my one biggest fear is staring at me in the face.
The one moment in my life where I thought I knew 'why' I existed on this earth is being mocked.
I was so sure, I was so ready, I was burning with passion.
Or something like it.
The fire has gone stone cold now as I struggle to just exist in this life.
I had a plan, I had a purpose.
But in my race to exist, I must have run off and dropped it somewhere.
But where?
I have searched everywhere.
I have searched inside and outside of me.
Its not under my bed, and I dont think I forgot to pack it.
Or did I?
I have spent the last few months trying to duplicate the circumstances under which I discovered that purpose.
Maybe, just maybe it will show itself again.
Now staring at my imminent failure, the voices in my head are pointing and laughing.
'Well what did you think you could do?' They are saying to me.
They are right aren't they?
I mean what else can I do?
Its like I woke up with amnesia.
What did I do wrong?
I envy all of you who not only know, but are doing.
I hope it doesn't take me another 20-something years to find it.
Dont wait another moment to start living your purpose. its not enough to just find it.
xxx
Fabulo-la
