...before I wake
I pray thee Lord, my soul to take.
Thursday night, went to church.
Back home Friday morning.
Same shit. Different day.
Happy New Year.
If 2006 was a painful year,
and in 2008 my heart broke,
In 2009, my heart bled.
The pain I felt was physical.
I have refused to reflect on '09
Because the pain associated with doing that is too much.
The process of growing up is harrowing.
I do not mean to be a kill-joy
I am just seeking the strength to put the year behind me.
Just like you all seem to have done.
Changing the dates alone is not working.
Maybe, just maybe I will be able to come to terms
with the year that was..
...If I should die before I wake
I pray dear Lord my soul to take.