...before I wake
I pray thee Lord, my soul to take.
Thursday night, went to church.
Back home Friday morning.
Same shit. Different day.
Happy New Year.
If 2006 was a painful year,
and in 2008 my heart broke,
In 2009, my heart bled.
The pain I felt was physical.
I have refused to reflect on '09
Because the pain associated with doing that is too much.
The process of growing up is harrowing.
I do not mean to be a kill-joy
I am just seeking the strength to put the year behind me.
Just like you all seem to have done.
Changing the dates alone is not working.
Maybe, just maybe I will be able to come to terms
with the year that was..
Until then...
...If I should die before I wake
I pray dear Lord my soul to take.
xxx
Fabulo-la
1/05/2010 |
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Hey dear, u know what? 2010 will be much, much better! Believe it and live it. Whatever it was that made last year bad, is gone with the year. Its time for a fresh new start... a new lease of life.
Do have a Happy New Year, fab. I know you will.
sweetie, like i said, everything will be alright...
u got to speak to the year. prophesy to it what u want......hugs darling. it will surely get better......it has to
You will not die...not yet luv...
You will fulfill the number of your days..
Nice one..love it
it's a gr8 new year for us all. live the best. forget the hurt and pain of previous years and focus on the joys of today. real nice one. happi nw year.
Fab. You're a strong girl. Adversity is a necessity of life. It is the vitamin water of the spirit. It delivers growth and forges maturity. You need it like a blacksmith needs a fire.
Don't deny yourself this wonderful opportunity to grow because it's accompanied by pain. Reflect on 09 and learn the lessons others who are all smiles have missed out on.
Your pain isn't purposeless. It is the birth pangs of growth in wisdom. Nothing can be more purposeful. Embrace it and grow.
Happy new year.
Dear Aunty Fab,
I have missed our Skype convos and I think it needs to continue ASAP.
You know it will b fine!
Hi dear
I have News for you
2010 is your year Fabulola
Its your year of being fabulous
Away with the pain and physical and mental
Your year of being FAB
and experiencing fabulous things
Nothing lasts forever
Much love xoxo
l really love the writing...
Happy New Year Dear.
This year would hopefully be a great year.
The change in date is not what matters but the fact that we get an opportunity to make it right that which was wrong. This is your year to be truly fabulous. Happy new year and you shall not die yet,welcome to a brand new day
Happy New year dear, don't be like this cos you never can say never. Say hello to 2010 and make of it what you will. The world is yous for the taking..
I pray that things become clearer to you this year. Amen!
sounds fustrating but i pray this year will be one of difference- good difference.
The Lord will be your strength and this year, will be your year of uncommon testimony - God Bless
The year will be what you make it my love!
Pele I hope 2010 is better for you.
I love reading your stuff,I hope you get better.
After darkness comes light, No?
Dang..
When I grow up, I want to write like you..
If I didnt sense something amiss,I would have said, lovely and deep.
But I would rather say,I will celebrate with you when it gets better cos it will!!!
Words out of my heart... Wish u a fabulous Year. In time, only beautiful things remain all else is forgotten.
babes this was deep.
*huuggz*
i agree with bonnie...
e-hugs
That God kept you till 2010...I am sure HE has something great in store for you. Let your past not be your dwelling place but your library of lessons learnt.
Take a hug for what you went through, if it will ease your pain. I know the pain will go away and you'll come out stronger and refined.
Happy New Year, and I mean it :-)
..feel you. Just a change of date.'10 Most times though...its not as bad as we think it is. :)
you are like this when i'm here???
WTH???
put a smile on before i change my mind
and i will invite you to my private blog...soon!
**kisses**
Pardon my unsympathetic comments but compared to a vast number of people in africa....youre in heaven even with your many problems....so just thank God for where you are now and brace yourself for the journey to where you should be...have great new year......and you writing is exqusite!!!
Fabulo-la... I love, absolutely love your style of writing. I salute ur creativity and skill and have utmost admiration for it. I hope 2010 is a much better year for u and brings u all sorts of good things. With your fabulousity, I'm sure u can handle any situation and will ultimately triumph. Happy new year!
in 2009, he cut out my heart and carved it up for dinner.
worse i don't even hate him.
i don't have the ability, never did.
so i understand what you are talking about, before then i never let go, i was always the one doing the hurting but i have let go.
advice: let go but don't lose ur ability to really love and be real.
cheers
The Lord can heal it all my dear, just give it all to him and trust him to piece you back together!!! This year will be a year of freedom... bask in the light :) Good Luck. P.S, I love your entries.
I feel the exact same way about my year