Its not that I don't love you.
I do actually.
With everything in me.
Just not the way you deserve to be.

I want to worship the ground you walk on
I want to yell it from the rooftops
I want to give you my mind
My body and my soul.
Not one or the other.

I want the whole world to know
That you are mine
And I am yours
I want to submit my all to you
But...

But I can't do it.
Not from here.
Not now.
I cannot give you what you need
What you deserve
I cannot love you
The way you need to be loved
Not now.

But I do want you to know
I'm coming back
And when I come back
It will be for good
I can only hope and pray
That you, My love
Will be here to meet me
That you will embrace me with open arms
Like I never left

I know we have that
old fashioned traditional
just-can't-live-without-each-other
intoxicating love.
But right now
Right now
Its not enough

Comments (33)

On September 4, 2009 at 3:18 AM , Sassy Trends said...

!11111111sssssssssst?
I sincerely hope so...lol

 
On September 4, 2009 at 3:22 AM , Sassy Trends said...

Yeappppppppppppp... I am!!!

Nice poem mii dear, I use to believe most poem we compose are trails of things happening to us right? maybe in my own case sha....

Nice one though...
xx

 
On September 4, 2009 at 3:45 AM , The Girl with the Red Hair said...

2nd!!!

You are staying my mind with this poem but instead of going away and coming back, I have to make a decision and I hope I make the right one!!!

Have a lovely weekend

 
On September 4, 2009 at 4:01 AM , muyiwa said...

why do u want to go and come back,hope you will still be getting in touch while u are away,cos things might change

 
On September 4, 2009 at 5:50 AM , akaBagucci said...

Perhaps some time away will bring clarity.. sometimes though its the first step away forever..... nice poem (and i hope it is only a poem!)

 
On September 4, 2009 at 8:12 AM , Lady X said...

Aha!!!
This is about the long distance boyfriend!

 
On September 4, 2009 at 8:28 AM , Bubbles said...

Interesting...
I don't know what to make of this

is this fact or fiction?

 
On September 4, 2009 at 8:45 AM , blogoratti said...

All that is needed is hope..it's the age of going after what you want afterall. Shout it on the rooftops:)
Nice read!

 
On September 4, 2009 at 9:48 AM , ~Sirius~ said...

aaargh, hate those right now feelings
its so annoying when you can imagine a different scenario for the same situation.
Nice post.

 
On September 4, 2009 at 9:49 AM , juiceegal said...

Hmmmm i just hope that when you decide 2 come bak he wld still be dere waitin 4 u..u dnt expect him 2 pause his life 4 u do u?? Nice poem....dint know u wrote poems o fabulola..lol

 
On September 4, 2009 at 11:07 AM , tunrayo said...

i know this feeling...knowing someone is perfect for you but also knowing that you need 'space' and wondering if they'll wait for you or if things will get better or at least stay the same when you're ready, praying they dont get worse,hoping it doesnt, end (my translation). I'm loving this post

 
On September 4, 2009 at 12:04 PM , RocNaija said...

Why do they always say "it's not enough"??
Sometimes, it is..

 
On September 4, 2009 at 12:59 PM , tunrayo said...

Roc but really sometimes its not....

 
On September 4, 2009 at 3:05 PM , Nice Anon said...

Are you sure this is REALLY what you want? THINK hard before you do because the consequences might not be worth it.

 
On September 4, 2009 at 4:37 PM , Mz. Eniola said...

AgHHHH!! blogsville is sad now! Im sad too! i just blogged bout sumthn sad.bubbles too then you! :( **tears**

 
On September 4, 2009 at 9:32 PM , Fabulo-la said...

@Sassy: No comment..but thanks :)

Thanks GWTRH. Hope you have one too.

@Muyiwa: That is certainly a possibility.

Thank you DannyB, I really hope so too. :)

LadyX, No comment o! lool

@Bubbles: Im not sure, but I do know its a lot of pain sha...

Thanks B'ratti and ~Sirius~ :)

@Juiceegal, I can only hope and pray. Right?
me sef I didnt know o! lol

Lool. I couldnt have said it better Tunrayo.

@Roc: Nobody deserves less that they give, that is why it really isnt enough sometimes.

@NiceA: Are we really ever 110% sure about anything?

MzEniola: Pls dnt cry, you will make me cry too :(

 
On September 4, 2009 at 10:23 PM , Nice Anon said...

Then make the decision when you are sure. Whenever we make a decision deep down we "feel" it is right. If you feel what you are about to do is right then go right ahead otherwise leave it alone and pray for clarity.

 
On September 5, 2009 at 3:06 AM , David.фаворит Бога номер-один said...

really nice...it's a lot of pain but a pain you want to feel, (if i'm right) because it keeps you (plural) connected and helps you (singular) know that what is there is going to die easily beacuse what you feel is for real...

it's a sweet kind of pain but the ache also comes from uncertainty...you need to be sure that you can abbandon certain things and not regret that you did...you need to be sure that it will be reciprocated and it will not only last but that it will also worth the sacrifice...

 
On September 5, 2009 at 3:07 AM , David.фаворит Бога номер-один said...

**is not goin to**

 
On September 5, 2009 at 1:09 PM , Ay ai ech said...

/Pointing stern finger/ I don yarn you before.

Love is overrated.

Oya, make I rant.

Appreciating the neuroscience behind love cheapens the euphoria. It surely might seem like you 'want to worship the ground he walks on' but babe I assure you, the altar you kneel before is nothing but a tickle of chemical rxns in your brain masquerading as your lover. Love shouldn't be ascribed any more value than the
prevailing market price of drugs that reproduce the same psychoactive effect. And that's real cheap.


Love is literally a cheap high. Should be treated as a perk. An added bonus. And like every other addicting drug, should not be the chief ingredient that sustains a rship.

Of all life's ruses, dare I say love is the most cruel, yet the most beautiful. And like most things of beauty, it distracts from its true nature lest you realize its grossly overrated.

 
On September 7, 2009 at 11:52 AM , miss.fab said...

Intoxicating love... I want that!

I've been in the space situation before. Mine didn't have a happy ending. But then again, it was far from being an intoxicating love.

I hope it all works out for you two...

 
On September 7, 2009 at 9:06 PM , Repressed One said...

Hmmmmmmmm. I wish you the best. Que sera sera.

 
On September 7, 2009 at 9:33 PM , Tigeress said...

you're 'coming' back? I hope 'it's' still waiting when u decide to go back.

Nice poem! :):)

 
On September 7, 2009 at 9:34 PM , BSNC said...

yea que sera sera what ever will be will be, the future is not our to see. que sera sera what will be will be.( that a song).

All the best babe :)

 
On September 7, 2009 at 11:56 PM , Original Mgbeke said...

Na to seriously hope that the bobo will be there to meet you. Nice poem as usual.

PS:- Poetry usually bores me, but I really enjoy reading yours.

 
On September 8, 2009 at 5:15 AM , Buttercup said...

All the best, hon. I guess you can't help how you feel..

 
On September 8, 2009 at 1:47 PM , unwritten said...

this was heartbreaking...well written luv :)

 
On September 8, 2009 at 1:55 PM , bob-ij said...

This is too cute!!... wow! I totally get, sometimes as much as we have is not enough. It just isn't enough. Sometimes it is though!
Nicely written!
x!

 
On September 10, 2009 at 12:38 PM , Afronuts said...

Sweet truthful words of an open heart


Does this have to do with long distance relationship?

 
On September 10, 2009 at 2:03 PM , Myne Whitman said...

Are you sure it is not? However things pan out, hope it works for you.

 
On September 10, 2009 at 6:00 PM , sunnyside said...

Its good to have the "just cant live without each other kinda of love". . . but sometimes its not enuf, sometimes u need to stay apart so that u can be together.

I hope u find ur way back and find him waiting to embrace u. . Nice poem

 
On September 12, 2009 at 3:25 PM , *Dith* said...

*sigh* I am sorta kinda at that place. When uve been heartbroken b4, it's kinda hard to love whole heartedly again. Nice blog hun!!

 
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