Why can't anyone see
That its really just a shell?
A front?
A fence?
A wall?

Do they really think I'm that heartless?
That I REALLY want to be alone for the rest of my life?

How unfair of you, my so called friends,
For you to think this way.

Because I don't whine and lament
About how I don't have
Or haven't had?
You think I don't want?

Would it surprise you if I did?
Would it surprise you if I told you
That secretly all I want is to be loved?
All I want is to be swept off my feet too?
All I want is a man that gets me too?

Would you be surprised If
I told you that I cried everyday?
That when you dont see me,
I am probably crying?

Would you look in shock
If I told you that I am not as confident
As I pretend to be?

Would you?

But you are my friend
You are supposed to see past all
the fronts
the fences
the walls

I see past yours
Why can't you see past mine?

xxx
Fabulo-la

Comments (28)

On December 11, 2009 at 1:41 AM , Tatababe said...

First!!! ha I don mark register hehehe

 
On December 11, 2009 at 1:43 AM , Tatababe said...

Deep and sincere and I gats to say I totally feel ya

 
On December 11, 2009 at 2:22 AM , burramint said...

in psychology this "I see past yours
Why can't you see past mine?" is called the illusion of transparency you think people can read your emotions but they really cant. sometimes it helps to open up, just a bit... to someone you trust... it helps :)

great post though!

 
On December 11, 2009 at 2:42 AM , shorty said...

I Feel you dear,dont worry you'll find perfect love soon :)

 
On December 11, 2009 at 4:46 AM , musco said...

let then see d real u.pple(friends) can't understand or see thru u unless u let them.

thanks 4 stopping by at my blog.

nice blog!

 
On December 11, 2009 at 6:10 AM , leggy said...

nice writeup, most times we build up walls expecting people to break them down...but sometimes we have to learn to come out of the shell ourselves.

 
On December 11, 2009 at 7:00 AM , My World said...

I feel your pain....It really beats me how our "friends" cant see past the walls we put up to say strong.......
Lovely!!!

 
On December 11, 2009 at 7:29 AM , Miss Natural said...

fabulola i think we are kindred spirits, how many times have i repeated your poem as a mantra in my head. its like you all depend on me, but i'm to afraid to depend on you or anyone else...but cant someone, anyone be persistent enough to decipher whats going on with me??? i loved it, you should publish you know, i'd definitely buy cos you speak to me.

 
On December 11, 2009 at 11:04 AM , 24yearOldTeEnAgeR said...

i know.

 
On December 11, 2009 at 11:45 AM , akaBagucci said...

Perhaps your friends also ask the same questions.. about why you put up the fronts, the walls and all the ish...
Sometimes you need to HELP them.... to help you....

 
On December 11, 2009 at 12:15 PM , HYAW said...

taking the words right out of my mouth... i feel you. i like the way you can neatly type your thoughts down, and make really nice poems. most of those your friends who whine about what they don't have don't write like this cuz they can always say it instead, so i guess this is why you write. though sometimes it's rewarding to just ignore your fears and everything and just open up to someone. is it. don't mind me, i am not sure. but i still feel your poem anyway

@24yearoldteenager
i feel your name

 
On December 11, 2009 at 12:15 PM , Fragilelooks said...

owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. this is so touching. maybe u shld break ur defences a lil bit. let pple know exactly how u feel and what u want. afterall, even the bible says " ask and it shall be given unto u".

 
On December 11, 2009 at 12:42 PM , TayneMent said...

like everyone said, its a two way streak. People only know about you what you allow them to know.

 
On December 11, 2009 at 3:27 PM , Repressed One said...

...this coulda been me writing. I feel you!

but i also do know that people can only go as far as you let them...

 
On December 11, 2009 at 8:48 PM , Myne Whitman said...

Sometimes so many walls are not necessary. I have to call myself to order sometimes. Why make it so hard on yourself and think you're hiding from others I ask myself. All the best girl, great writing.

 
On December 11, 2009 at 8:58 PM , Scarlet said...

Opening up a little will help, sometimes people can't know how we feel if we dont tell them.

 
On December 12, 2009 at 2:32 AM , Nice Anon said...

Walls are there to protect our best interest. The right person will tear it down without you even knowing it. Next thing you know na you go dey chase them around. LOL

 
On December 12, 2009 at 4:25 AM , David.фаворит Бога номер-один said...

...???
is this a front
or is this sincere...???
i'm not insensitive
but i do wanna know what to think...
what to say...
and how to say what i have to say

 
On December 12, 2009 at 10:57 AM , Rene said...

well written....i feel that way sometimes

 
On December 12, 2009 at 11:01 AM , Ms. 'dufa said...

Nice post. Totally feel you on this one. I understand that feeling

 
On December 12, 2009 at 12:27 PM , Fragilelooks said...

@nice anon: LMAO.

 
On December 14, 2009 at 3:19 AM , Die Hard said...

i rily do feel u tho...
its gonna come 2 u at da rite time, no need to hurry.
i need peeps to follow me and comment abt my post,
thank you.

 
On December 14, 2009 at 12:44 PM , NaijaBabe said...

Fabulosssssssssssssssskiiiii

 
On December 14, 2009 at 7:19 PM , neefemi said...

i guess they never seen past the previous walls, so they dont even see when u added to it,,,i think its ok to put down the walls tho, if u really trust them - cos sum times they just don't understand and u need to break it down for them

 
On December 15, 2009 at 5:28 AM , sunnyside said...

Lovely! Not everyone has d ability to c tru someone else. . Atimes u just have to tel them what u want them to know

 
On December 16, 2009 at 3:17 PM , P'sy-A-wana said...

maybe you've gotten so good at hiding who you really are and they look but that's all they see...sometimes your friends shouldn't have to do all the work you are their friend too...

 
On December 26, 2009 at 2:54 PM , uNWrItten* said...

i can so relate to this..infact next blog will be about this...hisss

 
On December 29, 2009 at 10:37 PM , Vera Ezimora said...

I wish I didn't understand what the heck you're talking about. Wish I couldn't relate. But I do.